Why it's taken me this long to blog...

I have always had a desire to Blog. I've had these moments over the years, of deep Intuitive hits, where it felt like I was "supposed" to share things...I never did. As I sit to right my first blog today, I am literally processing some of the real reasons I never did. Firstly, I have never considered myself particularly skilled at writing. Secondly, to be honest, I have never trusted myself enough to share those intuitive hits, due to self doubt. Ultimately, I am pretty darn skilled at placing others I admire above me, not in a petty way, just in a not seeing in myself what those same peeps see in me way.

This morning I opened my web page to update some things and even though I new there was nothing in the blog section, I opened it anyway. Just a short bit later I found myself at my alter, writing out this blog.

As I processed through some of this ancient baggage, I realized it's simply been a lack of trust in believing, that what I have to share has worth and value.

Here's something worth knowing about me. I believe and align with one of my many gifts, being the ability and willingness to be vulnerable.

What this sometimes looks like, is the ability to share my truths without fear of being judged. Bren'e Brown says "Vulnerability is not weakness; it's our greatest measure of courage"

I have had a lot of opportunity to witness vulnerability in action, facilitating women's circles and death doula workshops. I have seen the magic unfold time and time again, when one person, often myself, shares something difficult or maybe something considered intimate or private. In doing so, others follow and step into their own courage, feeling safe to share and safe to allow others to witness.Before you know it, you have a ripple effect and a circle of humans, allowing themselves to be truly seen by other imperfect humans, who are willing to hold safe space for each other, ultimately creating some really beautiful healing in real time. This willingness, this trust, the choice to lean in, is courage that is essential for the practice of being human, to allow ourselves to be seen without known outcome and yet feel safe enough to do it anyway.

So here's where I show up in transparency, in the heart of vulnerability, for the sake of my own growth and healing, as well as yours. I am pretty skilled at being vulnerable in the presence of others, especially in the aforementioned scenarios. Where I have been more challenged is truly allowing myself to be fully vulnerable with those closest to my heart, ultimately the person I truly feel safest with, the person I chose to spend my life with. The person who knows all the layers of the wounds that keep me desiring to stay on the healing path. It's a practice and he is the most patient human I know!

SO what I am ultimately saying here, is there is no finish line in the healing realm, there is no arrival to some elevated place of being healed. There are only opportunities to dive into and explore deeper layers of self, that if your'e courageous enough to feel into, then you can experience peace within, more often. In choosing to do so, you may just feel a deeper connection with your true desires in life, your souls purpose, and in the hopes that when your end is near, you can have little regrets about how you walked through this journey called life.

My intention and desire for each of us is to allow ourselves to be seen a little more often and in doing so, maybe we can peel back some layers to be willing to hold safe space for others to do the same.

Thanks for being here with me friends. Peace and Love, your way.